I’m a….Writer. Storyteller. Painter. Mental Health & Social Justice Advocate. Finder of beauty in all things
chaotic and broken.
I started this blog in November 2010 in an attempt to hold my racing thoughts captive long enough to understand them. In my past lives I’ve been an employee of Sam Goody, Commerce Bank, Target, and the good ‘ol USAF where I was a police officer. (People who know me still can’t believe the government let me carry weapons)
I’m currently wife to a futurist and singularity enthusiast named Bertski, who is a software architect by day and a robotics programmer & mobile developer by night. I’m mama to 2 hilarious boys who are polar opposites but somehow two peas in the same pod: Brennan, my Boy Genius, and Alex the Great, my sensational boy who was identified as being on the Autism spectrum and diagnosed with Sensory Processing Disorder this year. Oh yes…and I’m currently pregnant with our third-another boy
The journey through motherhood hasn’t been easy. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression since childhood but I missed the memo that having these conditions put me at high risk for developing PPD. My youngest was 10 months old before I found Postpartum Progress, the #PPDChat Army, and a whole new world of support, friends & most of all HELP. Even with this new world of resources my symptoms continued to worsen, leading to a bus ride to the VA Medical Center in Philly. There I was diagnosed by the intake psych as rapid cycling Bipolar Disorder II, and my life hasn’t been the same since. Living with a chronic illness isn’t easy peasy, but at least it’s manageable and in my darkest moments what keeps me going is the thought that it could be much worse…If I can survive childhood & sexual abuse, and being a single parent, what’s a little BP & sweat-inducing anxiety?
This blog is a place for me to own my story i.e. lay my humanity bare in the hopes that you’re encouraged to do the same-ya know, like that game you used to play as a kid, “I’ll show you mine if you show me yours.” I believe in the power of things like faith, transparency and vulnerability…my writing is usually flavored with heaping cups of all three, so I understand if you need a chaser to swallow it all in one gulp.
OKAY enough seriousness, let’s get to the important stuff…
Paint Shop: https://www.etsy.com/shop/abstractionsByaddyeB
Welcome to this butterfly’s confessions. I hope you always feel free to share yours.